"making it work" .... explain .

its like this :
im nineteen . im a very smart individual . i can sit around and philosophize on any and everything . but for some reason , there is one question that i just cannot figure out. how do you "make it work" ? what are the things that need to be done in a relationship to make it last ? because i just dont know . with me , when the going gets tough , it's time to get going . ive never been the type to sit around and try . after a fuck up or two , i'm out ! you can ask anyone who knows me well . and its not because i'm evil ..its because i stop seeing the point in it. after the fire is burned out, there is no need to look for the matches .. it was burned for a reason right ? maybe God didnt want us to see eachother anymore .
to have a successful relationship , does that mean i have to buckle down to a man letting him know everything im feeling, everything i fear , and taking off the front .. just to be manipulated and deliberately depreciated in the long run ? i think not . does it mean putting up with Bullshit and Bullshit's cousin, Lies, and being cool with them niggas ? letting a man walk all over me ? and sitting back and listening to the same s o r r y excuses over and over until eventually i become amune to them ? oh no ? yu say that's NOT what "love" is about ? hmmm .. well you tell me what it is then . because every couple that is on "love" and calls themselves "making it work" all have that same story . these girls sit back and "make it work" because they are afraid of being alone . either that or .. they're getting theirs in too . there is no such thing as genuine love these days . everyone in this world is too self-interested .
or maybe its me . i guess its some things that i'm not meant to understand ... this being one of them . but i really would like to know , though . maybe ... idk ... sometime BEFORE im married ? lol . if i make it that far .


from the bottom of my cold heart ,

iman juliette .