the boy or the world ..
yu see someone`s gotta lose .
i thought i could have it all .
do i really gotta choose ?

what good is all the cash ,
if it doesn't buy yu time ?
nd what good is being famous ..
if im never on ur mind ? =/


i know that i am , im just making sure im safe . cuz hearts break ... and im not tryna be in that collision .

-- I.E.

hmmmmmm .

im thinking of writing out my life story .

anyone care to read ? =/

o m [f] g .

whyyy do ppl have to be so thirsty ?
i knoww i knowwww , i mentioned yu in the blog last night/ this morning . but that doesnt mean to hit me up on aim today ! it was clearly a memory; something in the past . and why are yu on my life and my blogs that yu supposedly 'dont read' ? pleaaase , save it shawty . im clearly satisfied where im at and who im with . =]


speaking of that , i just wanna thank God . bc life has been going really good . i have a great guy [evn tho we havnt spoke much this week], great grades, and wonderful friends . of course i have bad days , but who doesnt ? and this music stuff is really picking up .. im getting known around school not only for being iman , not only for being scotty , but also for being I.E. ! dnt take this as me trying to brag cuz thats not the case . im just tryna explain that im content where im at right now in my life .


well , till later . =]

--I.E.

mannnnn . =[

my stomach hurts sooo bad . =[ .this is the worst stomache ache of all lifetime .

haha ..i remember when i used to get tummy rubs when i had tummy pains , nd massages when my back was aching . [nd of course there was reciprocity.] olo .. good times . =|


--I.E.

the light .

king ,
i aint seen yu inna minute .
wrote this letter, and finally decided to send it.
signed, sealed, delivered for us to grow together .
love has no limits , lets spend it slow forever.
i know ur ♥ is weathered
by what them girls did to yu..
i wnt assault them cuz i proly did it, too^ .
b/c of yu , feelings i handle w. care .
some bitches recognize the light ,
buhh they cnt handle the glare .
yu know i aint the type to wlk around w. matching shirts ..
if a relationship is effort, i WiLL match your work.
i wanna be the one to make yu happiest nd hurt yu the most.
they say the end is near , its important that we`re close .
to the most ,
high .
reguardless of what happens,
on Him lets rely .


* there are times when u`ll need someone . i will be by your side . :]

mysogyny .

im soooo mad at this ad . do yall get it ?

--I.E.

jamie is a retarddd !

" oh yu said BLOGSPOT ?

i thought yu said BALD SPOT !"

lmfaoooo . i love my bestfrienddd . =D

i hate this part right here .

eryday , seven takes of the same old scene .
seems we're bound of the laws of the same routine .
gotta tlk to yu now 'fore i go to sleep .

.. ..

but will we sleep once i tell yu whats hurting me?

=/

i HATE this part right here .

--I.E.

THiS nigga ..

MLK kanye ? come onnnn nowwww .


--I.E.

i wanna blog .

i wanna blog about so many things . i just dnt know where to begin . i wanna blog aboutt ::

Lil Wayne - Around The Way Girl - Lil Wayne
* how i love this new lil wayne song. i hated it at first, nd im sure yall will too^ . buhh give it a try. =] at LEAST listen to the whole song.

* how poppin Too Liiive was last night , and how we are about to beast on these hoes .

* how i have to think of a Too Liive nickname .

* how sore my legs are .

* how ur girl would feel if she only knew wuhh yu were doing . smh .=X

* how i dnt concern myself w. ppl that feel free to drop in && out my life .

* how i miss jamie enseki nd johnathan franklin.

* how i need to go back to Upward Bound for help on this fafsa shit ! >:o

* how all incoming freshmans should consider UCR !

* how BOMB our new commons is that just got done being built !

* the reason i wear this ring on my finger .

* how i need something new && feel like im not getting anywhere .


well , i guess that sums it up ! =]

--I.E.

mommy's bday .

today is my mom's bday .

i could write a million words describing how wonderful she is, and take a lifetime arguing with every person on this planet why my mom is better than theirs , buhh it will never be enough. so i wnt even attept.

i suprised mommie today. she had a dinner at el cholo's && ddnt even know i was commin! lol. i told her i had class so i wouldnt be able to make it , but i definitely ditched . [1st time i ditched this quarter! holla at me! =D] the fam said she was a lil sad cuz she was missing grandma , but when i got there it was like her whole world changed. her eyes lit up sooo bright ! it made me really happy && proud of myself.

* well , i just thought i should blog/bragg about it like i do everything else. =D

till laterrrr ,

I.E. <3

waiting to exhale .

dont tempt me . i have angie B tendencies .



ahaha. she got that nigga! thats how REAL bitches do it. they dnt stick around and take it nd take it. they take ACTiON! =]

--I.E.

the best thing .

i can say a lot of stuff thats wrong abt living in the dorms. how its too small , how yu have to share , how the beds are trash .. but there are some good things . like , meeting new people . && being involved . and being able to rely on ppl to give u things u dnt have! like foood . lol . but the best thing about living here is ... its mine .although small ,this is MY place . i can do wutever i desire! plus , tati hasnt been here for about 2 weeks now , so i have the entire room to myself ! i can walk around asshole-naked if i want to! lol. i love it . nd im so happy that i was able to experience this . =]


--I.E.

role model .

Songwriters sometimes sing unintelligible syllables to lay down a guide melody during the creative process. [ i do this , too . ] Here's an amusing example of this with my voice running through a very strict pitch correction processor.



he's so sick . like .. he can do everything ! man .. i really look up to this cat .


--I.E.

o5.19.9o - 2.14.o9 ?

&& the letter reads ,





if death comes for me tonight , boy , i want yu to know i loved yu . and no matter how tough i wouldnt dare , only to yu i would reveal my tears . so tell the police i aint commin home tonight . messin around w. yu is gon' get me life . buhh when i look into your eyes , you're worth the sacrafice .
if this is the kind of love that my mom used to warn me about , man .. im in trouble . im in real big trouble . if this is the kind of love that the old folks used to arn me abt , im in trouble . im in real deep trouble . i need yall to do me a favor .
someone please call 911 . tell them i just been shot down , and the bullet's in my heart . and its peircingg thru my soul . feel my body getting cold .
someone PLEASE call 911 . the alleged assailaint is six foot one . && he shot me thru my soul . i feel my body gettingg cold .

are yu dialing ? h u r r y .

--I.E.

why i love you - shanelle gabriel

preeeeaaacchhhhhhh!

THiS type love .

"i kinda feel comfortable now so .. i even be fantasizing about walking out on a green light , just [dying] to get hit by a car , just so that i could lose my memory , get transported to some third world country just to get treated and then somehow meet back up with you so i can .. fall in love with you in a different language and see if it still feels the same type love .
"



--I.E.

yeaaa ..

i just dont want a valentine anymore .


=/

what about your [f r i e n d s] ?

.. to be continued .

--I.E.

trading places .

whoooo !

is it hot in here or is that just me ? =X

yu can plan a pretty picnic, but yu can't predict the weather.

three times out of nine.
now if im lyin , fine .
the quickest muzzle, throw it on my mouth and i`ll decline.
king meets queen
then that puppy love thing .
together dream ,
bout that crib w. the good-year swing ,
on the oak tree
i hope we
feel like this forever .
forever .
forever ever .

.. forEVER ever ? =/



*my intentions are good, i wish i could ,
become a magician to 'abra cadabra' all the sadder .
thoughts of me . thoughts of she . thoughts of HE .
askin wut happened to the feeling that him and me ,
had .
i pray about it so much i need some knee ,
pads .
it happened for a reason one can't be ,
mad .
just know this ; kno that erything is cool .
nd yes i will be present on the first day of school
and graduationnnn . :P

3 words ; 8 letters .

he said it .
i said it back .




-- I.E.

soo much happened today .

i dnt even know where to begin .

1. mannn , R.I.P. diron . i ddnt really know you, but you are my bestfriend's brother's bestfriend. so that had to mean yu were tight, cause joey is tight as hell. its a crazy way yu died man .. i still cant believe it . nd i know it gotta be tough on joe cuhs i cnt imagine how hard i would take it if MY bestfriend jamie died . man .. i forsure wouldnt wanna live . nd i'd prolly die of depression . but yea man.. all i ask is that u watch over all of us , ur bestfriend nd brother day day the most cause they really need u right now . but im happy to know you died because of something you [ l i v e d ] for .rip again . * im here for yu jay .
2. i was scotty today ! eyyyy holla at meee . =D lol . it was cool .. i just walked around the pep rally nd gave hugs nd high 4's to everyone . lol .. took pictures nd ish .. yu kno , the regular stuff . but mann , i have to have helpers like dress me nd get me what i need nd stuff , but idk how good that is for my ego . =/ lol . like i had my girl leslee w. me , she was helpin me , buhh the other girl was just like meeting my every command! she got me water, got me dressed , threw away my tissue , yeaaa .. all that . lol. but its good i guess . its getting me ready so tht i know wut to expect when i get famous . ohhh and scotty ran into a tree today in front of th bookstore . lol . alll baddddd !
3. okayy , this event right here got me soooo mad . nd its soo much to type . ughh , im debating if i even feel like writing abt it . ahh i guess i will . imma just give yall the short version .

• i walk the p building . [when yu walk in its like this big room and 3 doors leading to the 3 different suite's where the rooms are at .]
• anyway , i walk in && look up at the ceiling .. and these dirty ass p-side bitches have dirty, stained , panties && bras hangin from the ceiling .
• i know right ? ewwww !
• i went sooo hard on them hoes . it was like a whole 'nother alter ego . idk who that girl in me was, but yu do N0T wanna fukk w. her . fuhreal fuhreal .
• i was just so mad because like .. y would yall do that in tha main enterance ? keep tht nasty ass shit in yall nasty ass hall ! tlkn bout that shit was a prank .. idgaF wut it was ! that shit is dirty as fukc nd makes ALL of us look bad .
• then i went bad on the RA's for lettin them do that nasty ass shit .
• nd now we gotta mandatory meetin tomorrow cuz of my ass . lol . idgaF , that shit needed to be addressed .

we got pictures of the nastiness . imma post em as soon as BH sends em to me .

buhh yeaa .. i just thouht i should let yall know abt these dirty hoessss ! gnight !

--I.E.

its crazy :

when i first hear the song 'flaws && all' by beyonce, it ddnt seem real. i was goin through a whole grip of stuff w. the one before you , and i couldn't see how someone could do all the things beyonce claims jay-z did . i just thought it was impossible .. like .. she HAD to be over exaggerating . buhh when i heard it t o d a y , i got a whole `nother outlook . i realized that mess is true ! everything she explains in the song , thats how i am , and that's wut you do for me . it made me shed a tear lowkey .

just thought i`d say thank you . :]


--I.E. ♥

o v e r d o z .

i guess im .. incapeable of accomplishing success ..
so why even struggle to try half my fukcin best ?
why even lie to my conscience and deal w. all the stress and put on this big charade
like i belong behind a desk ?
i'd rather be a slakcer . nd say i never tried .
nahh lemme change my mind nd say the limit is the sky so i ..
continuously lose and find myself inna lie ,
crakc a smile before i leave the dorm ,
right after i cry .


--I.E.