this goes for erything nd erybody .

i saw this quote in an away tonight . lol , it said ::

if i wanted it , i got it .
if i dnt have it , i had it ,
got mad at it ,
and dont want it anymore .



suitable for me , dnt yu agree ? =)

goodnight dumb asses .
-iEurope

its not about my ego .
yes , i hate to lose ,
but more than that , my [heart`s] been bruised .


* back to my jail cell . after a longgg , entertaining , INTERESTiNGG week . sighh , why did it have to go by so fast ? :( but anyway , i really need a new phone . cuz this sidekikc is fuckin w. my braiN . its so childish nd dumb . ugh . nd i dnt even like aim like that no more. once i came to college , my priorities changed . w. that said , i wnt be on aim too much longer , i mean i will but not like that . so if yu need me text at 3233848224 . or yu can always facebook me ! :) tht cnt go outta style ! wait.. i take tht back .. cuz myspace definitely went outta style. that's why my ish has been cancelled for the longest . but yeaaa, now im just babblin on abt irrelevant shit . its time to go to bed . goodnight ! :)
iEurope .

she wants to move .

E.B.

oh my , my , my . im feeling high . my moneys gone . im all alone . too much to think ; the world keps turnin . oh what a day .. what a DAYYY what a day .

peace and blessings manifest w. ery lesson learned .

if ur knowledge were your wealth , then it would be well earned . ;]

if we were made in His^ image , then call us by our names !

most intellects do not believe in God but they fear US just the same .

the man that knows something , knows that he knows nothing at all .

does it seem colder in ur summer time && hotter in ur fall ? =]

if we were made in His^ image , then call . us . by . our . names .
most intellects do not believe in God but they fear US just the same .

yu rush into distruction cuz yu dnt have nothing left .

the mother-ship cant save yu , so yo ass is gon' get left . =-P

if we were made is His^ image , then call us by our N A M E S .

most intellects do not believe in God but , they fear us just the same .

--> im feeling kinda hungry cuz my high is commin down . dont feed me yours , cuz ur food does not endure .

i think i need a cup of tea .

the world keeps burnin !

oh what a day .. what a day , what a DAY !

lately .

lately ,

ive been holding my tounge an awful lot. and my fingers, too .
cuz i dont think the world can bare what i have to say .
they cant take it .
so concerned about others, not wanting to be too blunt ,
i just hold it in .
all of the confusion , animosity , wake up calls..
i hold it in.
cuz i KNOW this world cant take it ! i know it !
they arent prepared .
its to the point where im considering getting a secret blogspot to say how i feel .
butt mannn , if anyone were to find it , ha .. i'd be in deep dogg doo doo .
but i dnt wanna go thru all tht mannnn .
i wanna just express myself .
and i know that doing so will facilitate my life ..
but i still havent yet .
i wanna let the world know .
i wanna shout . i wanna scream !
i want everyone to knowwwwww .
but they just cant .
and its like .. if i could just say it ;

then yu had better stfu when im talking .

2ooth blog anniversary .

today is my 2ooth blog anni !
aww im so exciteddd ! lol idek why tho .
but anyywhoo ,
me nd johnathan went to UB this morning for the 'banquet' --
that shit was NOT a banquet ! rachel chopped nd screwed usss !
lol . it was just regular class where they were tlkn abt the 1st yr of college !
wommmppp . but it was cool . we had fun [as usual]. =]
then we went nd tlkd to the freshman class . whoooo-weee !
santos is gunna break them down this year !!
thennn we went to dennyyyss . thennn we went to the movies to see taken .
[make sure yu see that . its really gud.]
we hung out nd stuff and were just tlkn .. tlkn abt what we think will happen after college , how we're unsure , and how erything is just movin so fast .
when yu sit back and really think abt where yu plan to be in five years, yu realize tht alotta shit thass goin on now is irrelevant && doesnt matter .
all this nonsense , all this drama .. all this bikcering back && forth between yu and a mate ..
it doesnt really matter . cuz 9 times out of 1o , yur NOT gunna be w. them .
idkk . i just know that these college yrs are the best yrs of my life .
and i wanna make sure to live it to my fullest potential .
idwanna be held down in any way, shape or form .
cuz i know that when im done, thats when reality sets in , and its me against the worldd.
but yeaa , sorry to be so .... whatever anyone feels im being ,
but i just have to give it to yu guys real .
OH ! and another thing ,
i was tlkn to my mom abt relationships and stuff ,
and she says that relationships are built upon two things :
respect and trust .
[woww. the two things we lack.]
and she says that if these two things are lost in the beginning , it makes no sense to try to fix it .
she says to just let it go .
but she says that if you've been w. ur mate for a while, say 2, 3 yrs , its best to just try to work it out .
side note:: "imma just come say hi" ; dont do that .
anyway , i always take moms advice , she's amazing . =]
nd then i was tlkn to my other friend , micheal ,
he's so philosophical .
he was telling me abt the 3 different types of love .
he says that theres a love called eros love ,
which is like erotic love . its usually based on like sexual and physical attraction .
then he says theres philos love ,
which is like a love between two friends.
where yu will try ur hardest to help them nd be there for them in hard times .
both of these loves are needed for a strong relationship .
but then he told me about agape love .
and that love , is unconditional .
its above both of the other ones,
and unlike the other 1s, w. this 1,
yu give love , just because you want to .
the love is totally selfless .
yu dont expect anything in return.
mike said this love is not given by humans,
and its the love that only God can give.
so from now on , when yu guys say yu love someone ,
make sure yu specify . dnt lead these suckas on !



-- bye guyss !
p.S. i [ philos-iLy] love yu . =]

=/

ive read the blogs .
and heard ur messages but ..
im just not ready to answer yet .
so i wont .

how i feel .

im getting the feeling yu wanna take revenge ,
from the conversations we have and the way it ends .
yu wanna discuss me in front of your fella friends .
that's why its just me and my mercades benz .
it all depends ,
maybe we can make amends ;
we could start from scratch .
learn to control your temper and remarks in fact .
we plan to be platonic w. our hearts intact ,
so erytime we seperate somebody's marchin back .
ur amazin in the sac .
eyes slant lke ur asian, but ur black .

awww . =]

" yall know how i met her .
we broke up and got back together ,
to get her back , i had to sweat her .
thought she rolled w. bad boys forever,
in many ways ,
them boys made it better . to grow , i had to let her .
she needed cheddar and i understood that .
lookin for cheese, but dnt call her a hood rat .
in fact , she's a queen to me .
her light beams on me .

.. i love it when she sings to me . =] "

- Common

another again .

and i know i said i would never fuck w. yu again ,
but sometimes im just put in these awkward positions and need yur support to lean on.
and i do it unconsciously.. i dont even mean to .
its like .. the time flies drastically fast ,
not giving me enough time to realize that in less than 1 day ,
4 essays are due at 8 AM on march 16th.
its getting worse .
cuz last time it was only two ; im beginning to push it past the limit .
then , even while ur up still at 6 AM monday morning , yu can't even feel accomplished cuz yu know that even after those 4 essays r turned in , 2 more have to be written for the final .
then these bald headed ass teachers have the audacity to only give yu 3 hours? whaaattttt ?
what part of the game is thissss ?


"iman , yu look tired . wanna caffeine pill?"
yu weigh the options .
yu can either take it and be ready and set to go ,
or something can go terribly wrong and yu die from it .
either way , yu never have to take english 1A again .
yu pop the pill , that says on the label "may stunt growth"
ha . i dnt think i have much to lose .
yu get to the final .
ur feeling energized and ready ; not too much but just enough to give it ur all .
ur flying thru this shit .
whaatt? was that allllll?
and when you're done and look at those six essays ;
those SiX essays,
YOUR six essays,
yu stop to think .
it was alllllll worth it . =]

but procrastination , please listen closely.
i know i lied last time , and yu once again trapped me in your spell ,
but i will notttt fuck w. yu next quarter !
yu cause me nothing but grief .
its gunna be hard to move on , which i know from past experiences,
but i eventually will .
i eventually wnt considerr ever being w. yu again .
think abt it : yu influenced me to do DRUGSS !
yes ! iman europe ! on drugs !
of corse it STARTS w. a caffeine pill , but wuts next ?
speed ?
no way jose . haha.. speed won't catch meeee !
sorry P, but yu`ve been replaced . i got me a [NEW] boo .
his name ? InAdvance . [i call him I.A. , he calls me I.E.] .
of corse his name isn't as cool as yours,
but he treats me right . ;)


--I.E.

remember the time ?

best micheal jackson song everrrr !




dont yu love this song ? im so glad micheal's comming back for his last tour ! =D

check this links out too..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uG5NhkxQJQc

okayy .. i know its overboard w. the M.J. , but you CANT SAY this isnt hella interesting and tight !



ok . im done .
thanks fer tuning in ! =)

--I.E.

uh ohh .

the fire just burned out .

i miss yu . =[

haaaaa ! =D

money left me today . in return for the cutest outfit everrr . long sleaved leotard and thee cuuuteeestt high waisted skirt . ohh my , its a keeper . and money , although i miss yu , i feel like the loss was benificial . =)


lol . not exactly what yu expeted ?
--I.E.

solitude .

sometimes , i just wanna be alone . like sometimes i just do NOT want a relationship . and its always been like this .. jamie knows . it'll get reaaaalll good nd reaall steady , nd then i'll just start reconsidering the whole thing. and idk why i do it ! its like .. right now , i jst cant picture myself married to someone and faithfully devoted to them for the rest of my life ! like how do ppl really get married ? doesnt it become boring ? idk .. its just one of those days i guess .. dnt take it personal . but it's like, sometimes im just off everything and dont understand the whole 'relationship' thing . like why ? wut happened to friends yu know ? but then .. i think about all the good times , and all the good qualities of having a significant other . like yu know that no matter wut, they're there . when the world turns their back on yu , they'll still be there for anything . idk .. its like the whole topic of love baffles me . because love runs out [for those who ddnt know]. i read abt it in class . its like a drug and it runs out eventually , until something happens to re-spark it . nd its like .. do i really wanna even go thru that ? do i wanna go thru wondering if his love has burned out on me , or if mines did for him ? its a complex situation . this is just how i feel today , tomorrow may be a different story . i cnt see myself being with someone FOREVER , unless their JUST like me . then they'll know when enough is enough .. when to be there and when to not . yu know wut , i got it ! from now on , im dating myself .




just like that .
I.E.

i STILL LAUGHH !!!!!!!!!!

lmfaooo . like really !

this is an awareness test .

craaaaazyyy shittt !

--I.E.

funny sheeeeyit .

L M A O !

--I.E.

i give up .

note to self ::

yu can NOT turn roommates into friends . it just doesnt work . especially when they're taurus's like yu . im so irritated with this girl, idgaf if she reads it ! and this isnt the 1st tiiimmmee ! jamie , yu were so right . im so thru of tryna rekindle this friendship when its clearly getting flushed down the 'FUCK IT' toilet . id rather be in and out of here with total silence for the rest of the school yr; fuck it . and i can REALLY be a bitch when i want to . those who know me know it . i can do sum scandalous shit like tell the RA i only want her bf to have 2 visits a month . meaning 2 days . meaning one weekend . if it gets to that point , it can get che-chewy . but i stay ready !



it's FUCK THE WORLD , but this is just foreplay .

--I.E.

aim . :]

after all the old screenames, with all the old memories [

*namskadam
*ucntgetenuffofme
*WE3Zi3 F LADiE
* tooLEGITtuhQUiT
* tall AND prettyy <-- my favorite

] its time to start new andd fresh . :)

-I.E.

i promise .

today was a bittersweet day . things tht made me mad nd things that made me happy both happened, all w. in the same time! i wnt really speak on wut made me mad , but as far as the good things go , i did my first performace today ! eyyyy i had griot night poppinnn ! lol . im reall proud of myself .. even if yu arent . nd if yu're proud of me too , is greatly appreciated . trust me , it'll all pay off , i promise !


--I.E.

your ringtone !

"yu and me togetherrr ,

through the days and niiights ,

i dnt worry cuhs,

errythings gunna be alllllriiiiiiiight .

ppl keep tlkn ,

they can say what they liiiiiiikkkee .buhh all i know is ,

erythings gunna be alllllriiiiight !

and no one .

no one .

noooo onnnnneee !

can get in the way of wut im feeelinngggg !"

;] :-*

i cnt wait till march 1oth when yu come back to the aim/blog world . then i`ll get my resposes for these sweet messages ! idunderstand exactly what the point is but .. hey; if ur down im down ! :)

marchh 4th.

* im too^ old to be frontin wut im feelin ,
denzel'n .
actin like yu aint appealin when yu are .
stunin like yu aint the only boy,
when yu are !!

.. im ready tuh stop when yu are . :]

--

mannn , practice was intense today . my quad is realllyy fukced upp and in need of a massage .

nd i have a big boo boo on my knee from falling . =[

i need a rubdown , no doubt .

but i see that happening no where in the near future . :[

also , i had a lonnggg tlk w. wifeyy aftin nd matia today . it was much needed . like i connect w. them so much now. and im so excited abt living arangements next year ! im gettn an appt. with matia, leslee , and mynesha . poppinnnnnn ! ;] . at first i was sceptical abt the whole thing, but when i sit back and think abt it , i know that erything will work out just fineee .

well , time to hit these egyptian cotton sheets ! still debating if im going to that 9:4o am class tomorroww ..

-- I.E.

lust for life .

im tryna do it all tonight .

i got plans .

i got a certain lust for life .

and as it stands,

erything is going as right

as it can .

they tryna shoot down my flight ,

before it lands .

before it lands .

buhh yu could miss me w. all THAT .

diss me, then crawl back .

i really wish yall would fall back .

but gettin rich spossed to solve that .

and these days, niggas make offers

and who the hell am i to say , "no, no, no" ?

my ex sendin late night texts cuz

he dnt know how to let go , go , go .

haa . he in love .

and as for them pretty light skinned

niggas standin in the cold,

oh yeaa they wit us .

let them boys in for a drink ,

and they all ,

in my ear .

sayin, "yu should be the one i see,

erytime, that im here."

.. but when am i really even here ? =/

-- Aubrey Graham aka Drizzy Drake .

.. he makes me shake .

deceit .

pleasure turns to the pain .
lessons learned from the strain .
questions burned in my brain
about whether love is humane
in its touch.
these thoughts are like salmon swimming upstream
in the tears of your deceit.
fighting the current hurt that kills more than is created by the chaos
of our intertwined emotions.
chaotic because the anchor of Erros' arrow has been plucked
from the vessel of my undying infatuation ,
separation not as simple as the distance between us
my mind no longer possessed by demons
that have been the overseers of my enslavement to your lies ,
the seeds of these lies rooted so deeply
they have cracked the foundation of what we once shared .
allowing the faith in us i had sealed inside
to gush out like a river ,
ripping the image of our future together from my thoughts
as violently and as brutally as if it were a child
being taken from its mothers arms ,
im left surrounded in darkness ;
but i refuse to be swallowed by it .
my lonliness like the night air :
invisible to the eye ,
obvious to the touch ,
it is cold uncomfortableness .
yet if i could do it all over again
id do it in the same skin im in
to lay down and let love die ?
just stay down and let love lie?
nahh nahh .. not [I].
id stay around and let love fly .
even though i have seen its darkest form;
deceit ,
nothing else could taste this warm
or feel this sweet.

the bitch .

my stomach is churning worse than ever before.
my eyelids feel like they`re carrying 10 pound weights on each one.
there's an uncountable amount of drain that flows within my body and seeps out of my pores.
the cause ? procrastination .
yu see .. i procrastinated those essays , that was given out on feburary 18th and due march 3rd , and decided to start it .. march 3rd.
well the initial plan was march 2nd but ..
1opm turned in to 11, 11 turned into 12,
and before yu know it; HEY HEY !
these essays are due in less than 8 hours.
but when ur used to pulling all nighters , it doesn't phase yu as much.
yu get yu a caramel frap from w. no whip cream nd extra caramel nd keep it pushin .
that is .. until 3:3o .
when ur still not finished with the 1st essay.
that is.. until 4:oo ,
when yu decide tht ur thoughts are getting cluttered and its time for a wake-up-shower .
that is.. until 5:oo ,
when yu result to going back to essay 1 tomorrow b4 class @ 12 so yu can get the essay due at 9 am out of the way .
that is.. until 7:oo ?
when yu`ve finally hit the sheets and think you`re accomplished until
9:oo hits ,
when the alarm goes off , and yu feel like all you've done for the past two hours was blink twice .
and all you`ve done in the past nine hours was compose two brilliant papers of bullshit .


procrastination, your a bitch . i hate you .

.. but for some reason i just can't seem to get enough . =/

--I.E.

pahahahaaa !!

jeff : aint that somethin ? after allll that shit they been thru , they still together . after ALL THAT SHITTTTT ! >:o !

brink: jeff . wut are yu talking aboutt ?

jeff: my ass cheeks . =D



lmaooooo ! jokes bro .


--I.E.

ur thee fucking best . =]