solitude .

sometimes , i just wanna be alone . like sometimes i just do NOT want a relationship . and its always been like this .. jamie knows . it'll get reaaaalll good nd reaall steady , nd then i'll just start reconsidering the whole thing. and idk why i do it ! its like .. right now , i jst cant picture myself married to someone and faithfully devoted to them for the rest of my life ! like how do ppl really get married ? doesnt it become boring ? idk .. its just one of those days i guess .. dnt take it personal . but it's like, sometimes im just off everything and dont understand the whole 'relationship' thing . like why ? wut happened to friends yu know ? but then .. i think about all the good times , and all the good qualities of having a significant other . like yu know that no matter wut, they're there . when the world turns their back on yu , they'll still be there for anything . idk .. its like the whole topic of love baffles me . because love runs out [for those who ddnt know]. i read abt it in class . its like a drug and it runs out eventually , until something happens to re-spark it . nd its like .. do i really wanna even go thru that ? do i wanna go thru wondering if his love has burned out on me , or if mines did for him ? its a complex situation . this is just how i feel today , tomorrow may be a different story . i cnt see myself being with someone FOREVER , unless their JUST like me . then they'll know when enough is enough .. when to be there and when to not . yu know wut , i got it ! from now on , im dating myself .




just like that .
I.E.