at night ..

nights are the worst . cuz that's when i really stop to think abt erything that's goin on in my life . things i forgot to do .. things i should've done .. things i would've done. and these thoughts tend to get the best of me. sometimes i just wish there was someone else here to lay w. me. someone to keep me warm in this cold ass room . and not just anyone .. i want someone i really care about. someone tht i not only need, but actually WANT . someone that shows affection but understands when i just want to cuddle . two guys fit the description but , 1 i dont WANT and the other 1 , this is all i want them for !


im on a hunt for a good man . .. nvm , that'll take too long . =/
PLUS that involves falling in love again ..
f* that . i'd rather die in this f*ngg icebox than go that route again .