the philosophy of life .

how do i want to start this ?
i mean there is no right way to start it . thats why in philosophy class we're taught to just jump into our papers without the introduction and the attention grabber . just to do the damn thang . so here we go .

so, a common belief between most of us is that we live and we die , and the things that we do while living determines if we will go to heaven or to hell , where we will live eternally . and thats it . thats all . but that makes no kind of sense to me whatsoever because God is smarter than that. it has to be more to this picture than what we see .

i think that there are levels of life . for example , i feel like one level is insects and bugs , the next level is animals , and the next level is humans . but whats the next level ? the animals have the ability to kill the bugs , and we have the ability to kill both of them . who/what kills us ? there has to be another level , this cant be it ! God is toooo smart for that .

i think that there is a level out there that is higher than us that we don't know about yet . i feel like they have the power to kill us the way we kill bugs . because think about it , when we squash bugs and kill them , they just think they died . they dont know that we took our foot and stepped on them . they and the rest of their family think they're just goners , and thats because they dont know about the higher levels yet because they havent got here . are you following me ?

i feel like what we do on this level determines if we move up to the next level or down to the animal level . if we do good , we go to heaven , which is the next level that we dont know about . but if do bad while on this level , we go to "hell" , or to the level under us . it is kind of like reincarnation , but just a little deeper .

and i feel like Jesus is the ruler of THIS level , mainly because he was a human like us and we have proof that he was on this level. but i think that GOD is the ruler of ALL levels . like God is the one that made the heaven and earth , humans and animals . and HE is the foreseer of all levels . but i think that every level has a different level-ruler , as Jesus is to us . still following ? good .

and thats basically it (for the simple version) . my goal now is just to figure out what the next level is . is it the thing we call "aliens" ? since we've never come in contact with them but just have an idea of what they are . maybe we call them aliens because we dont know what they are . but they could just be the next best thing .

im not asking you to agree , but hopefully your mind is open enough to see it as a possibility .

- Iman Europe

my little man ,

i saw this video and it almost made me cry ! that little boy loves his mom so much . it makes me want a little boy . cuz if my son came to me with this , it would just be the best day of my life . period .

10/16 - freewrite .

ok so in creative writing class , we have to do this thing called a freewrite . and in it , you have to write about whatever topic my teacher gives us without using punctuation (except --) . its just an endless sentence that goes on and on about whatever comes in your mind , even the off topic stuff . so imma try it out . imma talk about whats going on right now in a freewrite . this should be intertaining . you'll see deep my thoughts get .

-- OK SO im at home with jack matia and nesh and were on the couch watching these tornado's and im just now beginning to notice how powerful they are and like they never get recognized on the news but they really make impacts like think about it if you get sucked up into that tornado its a definite rap for your life-- i mean wrap for life-- that word rap is always stuck in my head but anyways think about all the shit tornadoes pick up like trees and houses and nails that were holding the house up and glass from the house windows and cars from houses driveways -- like that mess is no joke and there is no way to survive that ever and the crazy thing is is how they start which is basically because they happen in the middle of the united states where the winds from the east and the winds from the west collide into eachother and when they collide too hard it starts a whirl and kills a girl -- or guy -- whatever anyway isnt that crazy and it almost makes you wonder what to even do if you see one coming your way like if they come your way youre done no matter what but for some reason ppl have got it to where they dont get sucked up in that thing like they built a place in their house under the basement and when a tornado comes they just go down there -- like thats some genious shit like who would have thought to make a house under the house dug under the ground to go to incase of a tornato that guy who made that up had to be a genious or something man like forreal that nigga had to be high cuz when you high you think of bomb shit like it dates all the way back to indians who built the underground little dirt caves and it just started progressin and progressin like i think the cavemen just died when tornado's came cuz they were too dumb to know what to do like the indians did like the indians where the first to find weed and they smoked it and thought of bomb creations and that is why we have smart shit like underground houses and then as time goes on we progress and progress and more people begin to smoke more weed and think of better ideas and that is why we went from boats to planes and from asking an elder to going to google like technology progressed because we progressed as a whole and smoked more weed and that is what i think (:

heartbreaker , you've got the best of me .

today in creative writing class , we had to write about the person who broke our hearts . how they smelled , looked , sounded .. all of the five senses . we wrote first about how we saw them when things were all good , and then we wrote abt how they broke our hearts and how we saw them after they did so . and the thing that i noticed was , everyone was writing .

doesnt it suck that everybody has had theyre heart broken at least on time ? like everybody has to go thru the pain and agony of being hurt by another human being , wether it was intentional or not . it sucks .. and its not fair . as is life .

i looked around the room at everyones faces while they were writing. everyone was all depressed and sad .. and MAD that the teacher made us revisit that dredful memory . i know i was . i wonder how the heartbreakers would feel if they saw they're heartbreakee's face . would it bring them joy or make them frown ? idk abt them but .. it makes me want to never break a heart again .

september 26th ?

seriously ? is that the last time i blogged ? wow . im really slackng . shit just gets hectic , yu know ?

but anyway .. just a quick little update :

im back at school ! and the nest is paaaahhpin ! for those who dont know , The Nest is the name of me , matia , mynesha, and leslee's apartment . we call it the nest cuz we're on the 3rd floor .. so it sits high like a nest does in a tree . actually , now that i think abt it , when yu look off the balcony , it kinda seems like we ARE sitting in a tree ! but thats where jeff stays :) . but anyway , we live in The Nest and we're The Birds . cuz we're fly of corse . lol . its cool tho. we get along pretty good .


one of these days i'll come back to explain my new philosophy of life . its very deep and mind blowing so yu must be prepared . im tryna write a little book on it , but i'll just give you a preview since you're pretty . (: